Adding to our family

I think it's more 'for certain' than any other idea we've come up with before, so its just about decided that we'll be heading back up north at the end of our lease. I'm pretty excited about it...honestly. I love the family up there, and it will be nice for hubby and I to have some time to ourselves what with all the eager babysitters around!

In other much more exciting news (in my opinion), we've decided to try again for #2. I'm very excited, but also already psyching myself out. I have literally no worries over how long it takes to GET pregnant...in fact, I'd almost enjoy a bit of 'trying', but with our history, I'm more concerned that we will immediately fall pregnant and then run a high risk of enduring yet another miscarriage. I'm still confident enough in my body's ability to conceive and carry to term that I'm not yet willing to seek help for our (seemingly) high number of miscarriages, but it has already tainted this next pregnancy. I'm trying very hard to push aside my concerns. I know that miscarriages are much more common than many people realize. I also know that the chances of conceiving a healthy fetus and carrying to term actually increases in the cycles directly after a miscarriage (a time-frame that still applies to me). And, more importantly, I do know that I'm young, and if this next one results in a miscarriage, then there more than likely are easy 'medical' remedies to the problem.

To help ease my worries, I've already decided that there will be no pregnancy testing this go around. I have been taking my basal body temp for the past two cycles in an effort to naturally prevent a pregnancy, and I will continue to do so as we now proceed in hoping to conceive. Once I see a pattern of 18 post-ovulatory temps without a drop, then I can confidently proceed as pregnant.

One thing I've been debating...knowing that I will be temping at least that long into a pregnancy, is whether or not I might gain peace of mind by continuing to temp further into the first trimester. I know that the signs of a miscarriage may often occur BEFORE  drop in temperature is detected, but I also know that the opposite can be true....that a drop in temperature will be detected before any signs of a miscarriage present. Would I gain anything from that extra knowledge...or would any slight fluctuation in temperature freak me out knowing that my concerns are as valid as they are...

I should probably not temp past 18 days. lol

I'm hoping that if we conceive easily, that we are still near family, and I can benefit from all that extra support and attention to help the time fly by until I feel 'safe' within the pregnancy. And, who knows...perhaps this pregnancy will come with its own peace of mind at conception...perhaps my body will register a strong implantation, ect... and give me feelings of ease within those first months.

Either way, I'm excited to be realistically contemplating adding to our little family. I plan to enjoy every bit of it that I can as I'm honestly not sure if there would ever be another.