I've found that I'm quite a bit anxious this month for ovulation to finally arrive. I seem to ovulate shortly after cycle day 20...it's varied in the two months I've temped, but always AFTER day 20. As that time period rapidly approaches, I find that I'm getting more and more on board with 'making a baby' for lack of a better phrase.
I'm enjoying myself...well, we both are, because with all the focus on NOT conceiving for the past three years, and then the previous pregnancy with all its complications, sex has not been what it's meant to be for quite some time. That's not to say we haven't been finding creative ways to satisfy one another in the meantime! it's just that it's infinitely more enjoyable and relaxing to be able to turn to the one you love in the middle of the night without all the complications and concerns that come with 'prevention'.
Anyway, as ovulation nears, I'm also keenly aware of my cycle dates, of the lifespan of sperm, of the intimate goings on of my body as it prepares itself for the possibility of a pregnancy. It's a lot to think about. And such an amazing thing that we are even capable of...to create another life...simply amazing...
Friday, January 13, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
Adding to our family
I think it's more 'for certain' than any other idea we've come up with before, so its just about decided that we'll be heading back up north at the end of our lease. I'm pretty excited about it...honestly. I love the family up there, and it will be nice for hubby and I to have some time to ourselves what with all the eager babysitters around!
In other much more exciting news (in my opinion), we've decided to try again for #2. I'm very excited, but also already psyching myself out. I have literally no worries over how long it takes to GET pregnant...in fact, I'd almost enjoy a bit of 'trying', but with our history, I'm more concerned that we will immediately fall pregnant and then run a high risk of enduring yet another miscarriage. I'm still confident enough in my body's ability to conceive and carry to term that I'm not yet willing to seek help for our (seemingly) high number of miscarriages, but it has already tainted this next pregnancy. I'm trying very hard to push aside my concerns. I know that miscarriages are much more common than many people realize. I also know that the chances of conceiving a healthy fetus and carrying to term actually increases in the cycles directly after a miscarriage (a time-frame that still applies to me). And, more importantly, I do know that I'm young, and if this next one results in a miscarriage, then there more than likely are easy 'medical' remedies to the problem.
To help ease my worries, I've already decided that there will be no pregnancy testing this go around. I have been taking my basal body temp for the past two cycles in an effort to naturally prevent a pregnancy, and I will continue to do so as we now proceed in hoping to conceive. Once I see a pattern of 18 post-ovulatory temps without a drop, then I can confidently proceed as pregnant.
One thing I've been debating...knowing that I will be temping at least that long into a pregnancy, is whether or not I might gain peace of mind by continuing to temp further into the first trimester. I know that the signs of a miscarriage may often occur BEFORE drop in temperature is detected, but I also know that the opposite can be true....that a drop in temperature will be detected before any signs of a miscarriage present. Would I gain anything from that extra knowledge...or would any slight fluctuation in temperature freak me out knowing that my concerns are as valid as they are...
I should probably not temp past 18 days. lol
I'm hoping that if we conceive easily, that we are still near family, and I can benefit from all that extra support and attention to help the time fly by until I feel 'safe' within the pregnancy. And, who knows...perhaps this pregnancy will come with its own peace of mind at conception...perhaps my body will register a strong implantation, ect... and give me feelings of ease within those first months.
Either way, I'm excited to be realistically contemplating adding to our little family. I plan to enjoy every bit of it that I can as I'm honestly not sure if there would ever be another.
In other much more exciting news (in my opinion), we've decided to try again for #2. I'm very excited, but also already psyching myself out. I have literally no worries over how long it takes to GET pregnant...in fact, I'd almost enjoy a bit of 'trying', but with our history, I'm more concerned that we will immediately fall pregnant and then run a high risk of enduring yet another miscarriage. I'm still confident enough in my body's ability to conceive and carry to term that I'm not yet willing to seek help for our (seemingly) high number of miscarriages, but it has already tainted this next pregnancy. I'm trying very hard to push aside my concerns. I know that miscarriages are much more common than many people realize. I also know that the chances of conceiving a healthy fetus and carrying to term actually increases in the cycles directly after a miscarriage (a time-frame that still applies to me). And, more importantly, I do know that I'm young, and if this next one results in a miscarriage, then there more than likely are easy 'medical' remedies to the problem.
To help ease my worries, I've already decided that there will be no pregnancy testing this go around. I have been taking my basal body temp for the past two cycles in an effort to naturally prevent a pregnancy, and I will continue to do so as we now proceed in hoping to conceive. Once I see a pattern of 18 post-ovulatory temps without a drop, then I can confidently proceed as pregnant.
One thing I've been debating...knowing that I will be temping at least that long into a pregnancy, is whether or not I might gain peace of mind by continuing to temp further into the first trimester. I know that the signs of a miscarriage may often occur BEFORE drop in temperature is detected, but I also know that the opposite can be true....that a drop in temperature will be detected before any signs of a miscarriage present. Would I gain anything from that extra knowledge...or would any slight fluctuation in temperature freak me out knowing that my concerns are as valid as they are...
I should probably not temp past 18 days. lol
I'm hoping that if we conceive easily, that we are still near family, and I can benefit from all that extra support and attention to help the time fly by until I feel 'safe' within the pregnancy. And, who knows...perhaps this pregnancy will come with its own peace of mind at conception...perhaps my body will register a strong implantation, ect... and give me feelings of ease within those first months.
Either way, I'm excited to be realistically contemplating adding to our little family. I plan to enjoy every bit of it that I can as I'm honestly not sure if there would ever be another.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
What to Do...Again.
Well, perhaps I was a bit quick to assume we'd thought up a definite plan. Not that we hadn't...we had, the map app was in high use as I went ahead and planned out our route, our definite stops, and the maybes...but then we found out that the car we were borrowing needed to be driven 10 hours out of the way for an inspection. By the end of the month.
Sigh.
Oh well. I'm not too upset about the possibility of ending up north for another family visit, but I worry that the car simply can't handle a twenty hour roundtrip before we even START towards Florida! After all, it does have something like 200k miles on it!!
So, now we're in the thought process of figuring out what to do...once again.
At least we're finally seeing some price pick-up for Bitcoin!
Sigh.
Oh well. I'm not too upset about the possibility of ending up north for another family visit, but I worry that the car simply can't handle a twenty hour roundtrip before we even START towards Florida! After all, it does have something like 200k miles on it!!
So, now we're in the thought process of figuring out what to do...once again.
At least we're finally seeing some price pick-up for Bitcoin!
Sunday, January 1, 2012
We've decided!
Not a big picture solution to our 'where is home?' 'how do we want to live?' questions, but a short term solution that seems do-able and has us both excitedly looking forward to the end of our current lease.
We're off to Florida! We're thinking of going more mobile though, probably renting out of extended stay hotels for a week at a time in various 'base' cities and then spending our days exploring the surrounding areas attractions. There's a wealth of touristy attractions in Florida, and I've definitely always had an interest in seeing Florida although actually living there is another story. But, how knows, maybe we'll find that Florida is what we've always been seeking!
So far, I've been working on a rough itenerary. Looks like Savannah, GA is our first stop for a week.
Not a big picture solution to our 'where is home?' 'how do we want to live?' questions, but a short term solution that seems do-able and has us both excitedly looking forward to the end of our current lease.
We're off to Florida! We're thinking of going more mobile though, probably renting out of extended stay hotels for a week at a time in various 'base' cities and then spending our days exploring the surrounding areas attractions. There's a wealth of touristy attractions in Florida, and I've definitely always had an interest in seeing Florida although actually living there is another story. But, how knows, maybe we'll find that Florida is what we've always been seeking!
So far, I've been working on a rough itenerary. Looks like Savannah, GA is our first stop for a week.
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